[was Till maybe hoping that Ivan would reject him and then Till could just lean into an appropriate justification to impose distance? knowing he wouldn't be able to otherwise?
and of course Ivan is so sweet about it, the way he practically nuzzles in like that.
"like" is...
well. Till had just intended to air his attraction. he hopes he isn't stringing Ivan along, but he isn't positive he doesn't...not like Ivan. already, he's overthinking this. already, it's a bad idea. already, it's out of the way.
Till tilts his head again, eyes closing as he brushes his fingers across Ivan's cheek again, beckoning him in to another kiss.
Ivan had kissed him so many fucking times, and towards the end is when Till felt frustrated he couldn't just initiate the kiss himself. demonstrate. and then he felt frustrated he couldn't just meet the passion, especially when Ivan's take finally got there. by then, Till was already getting off helplessly and deplorably to the whole idea of showing Ivan the ropes. it made him feel guilty in Ivan's admiration for him.
but either way, he finally gets to kiss Ivan. and it feels good. his head tilts, jaw dropping subtly in his next couple of kisses, a bit looser, and he strokes his tongue into Ivan's mouth.]
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[this is bad.]
Some taste you got...
[was Till maybe hoping that Ivan would reject him and then Till could just lean into an appropriate justification to impose distance? knowing he wouldn't be able to otherwise?
and of course Ivan is so sweet about it, the way he practically nuzzles in like that.
"like" is...
well. Till had just intended to air his attraction. he hopes he isn't stringing Ivan along, but he isn't positive he doesn't...not like Ivan. already, he's overthinking this. already, it's a bad idea. already, it's out of the way.
Till tilts his head again, eyes closing as he brushes his fingers across Ivan's cheek again, beckoning him in to another kiss.
Ivan had kissed him so many fucking times, and towards the end is when Till felt frustrated he couldn't just initiate the kiss himself. demonstrate. and then he felt frustrated he couldn't just meet the passion, especially when Ivan's take finally got there. by then, Till was already getting off helplessly and deplorably to the whole idea of showing Ivan the ropes. it made him feel guilty in Ivan's admiration for him.
but either way, he finally gets to kiss Ivan. and it feels good. his head tilts, jaw dropping subtly in his next couple of kisses, a bit looser, and he strokes his tongue into Ivan's mouth.]